Fear no evil....

This week I was out on a hike for the first time in years. Tuesday afternoon we started our hike with about 15kilos on our backs and 3 dogs. 1 husky, 1 GSD and 1 mutt puppy.
We walked through the rain about an hour and joked about the fact that we were being followed by a rainbow - Gods promis that we were never going to have to do this again. Not that anyone was forcing us but anyhow.
After hiking for about 2 hours it started getting dark and we found a good spot to set up camp. We didn't get a clear sight of how the campsite looked like but in the dim light it seemed perfect.
We pitched the tent and started a fire. My hiking partner had shot a hare earlier and started to clean and skin it. At about seven thirty we heard strange growling noises from the dark woods and realized that it wasn't the dogs that were making them. Remembering something I had read I understood that it was a wild boar. Let me tell you that this usually cocky young woman was not so cocky right then and there. We felt pretty small hiding behind our tent. we decided to climb the nearest tree for safty and call someone who could tell us what to do? Thank God for cell phones!
The answer was the usual.. "he's probably more scared of you then you are of it."
- Great, and thats reasuring when I'm sitting in a tree in the middle of some dark woods. Who cares how scared the stupid boar is? I'm about to piss my pants!!
And everyone knows that frightend animals are the most dangerous. My partner climbed down, but I decided to stay a while longer. In my tiny twig of a tree I felt somewhat safe. Who new that hiking and camping could bring you so close to wildlife?? Well, while my romantic and charming idea of camping was quickly leaving my mind being replaced with the true scenario of "your on your own kid." I finelly climb down from the tree.. wishing with my whole heart that the hare my friend had shot would just magicaly disapear so the boar could look elsewere for food. The dogs didn't even seem fazed that our very lives were being threatend - I should probably add that we didn't hear the boar anymore that night. I just couldn't calm down though, I was praying and singing worship songs. God just kinda reminded me - "Your not so tuff without 4 sturdy walls around ya, are ya?!" - "Yeah, you ain't seen nothin yet, you should check out the bears I've created.." Ok God, riencheck on that one :)
I looked everywhere for comfort - I called friends and I called my dad, nothing seemed to fade my fears. In that moment I realized - All I had was Jesus. No one else was going to save me. No one else could.
I had no other comfort. Sure this was the kind of storm you just have to ride it out. But still was God preparing me for more situations like this. I was looking forward to spending more time with my awsome God, I knew that this hike was going to draw me nearer to Jesus. Sitting there by the fire straining my eyes to the max to try to see into the woods after the beast that had frightened me up a tree, I realized that this was me learning to trust Christ. He was not going to let anything happen to me and I had no choice but to trust him. Also the "things aren't what they seem" lesson was also being learned.

My way or the Highway!?

Everybody keeps telling me that breaking up is hard to do. Untill recently I was in a reletionship with a guy, we were together for 4½ years. The thing is we didn't really have the ultimate grounds or pillers for a great relationship the first 2 years were completely on his terms as I was to young to understand any better and then he cheated on me making the whole trust thing a big issue.

Up untill about 1 year ago I wanted to make things work, this stubbern thought started to cease after many years of just not getting along. Differant morals and principals started to be an issue, the discussion of children had come up, and it just felt like we wanted differant lifestyles. So I took a tough dicission and asked God to totaly erase any feelings of love for this man. Giving my heart totaly over to God.

I had experienced a feeling of my heart being split inbetween God and my boyfriend. "M" was not a chrisrian and had no intents of becoming one either.

A few weeks passed by and I didn't feel the same love for "M" as I had done earlier it hurt though, losing love for someone you've loved for so long was no picnic.



Now your probably wondering why on earth I'm sharing this stuff...

Well..



Everyone kept telling me to end it quickly and let him go, but I felt sick to my stomache everytime. They told me you have to make a clean break. The whole world knows that when you feel something like you do you got to end it.. quick.

I was in no hurry though, I felt i wanted to slowly break it off.. with time I would know what to do.

You know God doesn't really map out things directly, he gives things time and patience to grow or fade.

Thats when I realized just because the whole world thinks something to be right does not mean that it is.

I think that we as christians forget to agnoledge the fact that the world is run by our arch enemy and Gods nemesis.
I'm not saying that breaking up slow with "M" was the right thing to do. But I have no regretts today.
What I mean is.. How often do we really question the ways of the world?
How often do you think,.. is this really the way God intended us to act, think or speak?
If I have been living this way for years does it make it right?

Example, everyone has heard the words "If it feels right it is right"..? Breaking up with "M" didn't feel right at all times, but I know now that it really was.

Sometimes doing the exact opposite of what is normal and rutin is just the right thing to do.
Let me encourage you to ask more questions and seek more answers. God has said in his word "Seek and you shall find" and thats a promise from the one we always can trust will keep his promises.

So is it My way or the Highway? Well I'm turning of on the next exit on to Gods way. The terrain is tougher but the destination is far much better, and the best thing is that we got a map for this road.

Breaking and Entering

"If you need help - Ask God, If you don't need help - Thank God."

Life is an ongoing mystery to me,.. When one thing seems to be going well all Breaks and goes south once more.

I want to live! The way I was intended to live.. Is this it?

Should I be sitting infront of a computer screen at 1 o'clock in the mourning knowing that in 8 hours I must be up dressed and ready to take 5 puppies to the vet. I just don't care.

But I want to care, I want the healthy lifestyle and all there is to it.

Right now I am falling into my all to often visited pit of dispair. The pit I just climbed out of recently.

I want to break free and find myself, enter the lifestyle that God has planned for me, or is this the plan? Am i supposed to be an example of trust in God? I have asked for help and I seem to be getting the same answer - "I am"

What does that mean?

My Lord , My God, My King!! Am I too busy in my very eventfull spare time to listen to what you really are saying?

"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. " -Ps 23

Why do I feel lost and very much missing out on the part - Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life ?

Breaking and entering... Will today be the day?