Life is all about learning. Every day is new and a new lesson to be learned. You are never the same as the person you were the day before.
2012 has been a year of extreme sorrow, trials and learning for me.
I lost the love of my life.. The man I married wasn't who I thought he was... or in reality he wasn't the man i so truely wished he was. Without going deeper then just scraping the tip of the iceburg, narcotics, crime and a bunch of lies.
I try to always be as truthfull as I can. I believe strongly in honesty and also know the depth of pain lies can bring. I mindblowing sorrow that makes you sick to your stomache.
Life has been alot like a rollercoaster ride these past months. Sorrow, anger, sorrow, freedom and more sorrow.
In the middle of all the sorrow a light shines.. brighter then the suns strongest rays. A whisper through the clouds saying softly ... walk by faith.
I've been through hours of talks with social services about the well being of our son. I thought that they would believe me just because it was the truth. But the reality of the world is unfair, I keep being questioned.
My former husband lies, cheats, does drugs and has a criminal record longer then Santas naughty and nice list. Still they keep repeating his right to a second chance. Even when he has done the very same to his little girl who this year turned 10. Still I am the one being questioned.. I've never done any drugs, or anything criminal... I don't lie, I don't cheat or manipulate. But he has a right to a second chance..
Yes, there are troubles, some which we never could imagin.. such as not being believed when we are being truthfull. But it says "take heart".
To take heart is defined as : to recieve courage or comfort from some fact, to start feeling more hopeful and more confident, to feel encouraged.
The fact is God has overcome this world. This world of lies deception and deceit has been overcome by our awesome father and He is truth and freedom.
I just have to trust Him now in my darkest hour, even if the outcome isn't what I expected I need to trust that He loves me and He loves my son. He will protect our hearts. The truth is if people don't want God they don't generaly want the real truth either.
